viernes, 20 de noviembre de 2009

Thor's dream I the haunted house


Dream I - THE MORTALS IN THE HOUSE

Under none of the accredited ghostly circumstances, and environed by none of the conventional ghostly surroundings, did I first make acquaintance with the house which is the subject of this Christmas piece. I saw it in the daylight, with the sun upon it. There was no wind, no rain, no lightning, no thunder, no awful or unwonted circumstance, of any kind, to heighten its effect. More than that: I had come to it direct from a railway station: it was not more than a mile distant from the railway station; and, as I stood outside the house, looking back upon the way I had come, I could see the goods train running smoothly along the embankment in the valley. I will not say that everything was utterly commonplace, because I doubt if anything can be that, except to utterly commonplace people- -and there my vanity steps in; but, I will take it on myself to say that anybody might see the house as I saw it, any fine autumn morning.
The manner of my lighting on it was this.
I was travelling towards London out of the North, intending to stop by the way, to look at the house. My health required a temporary residence in the country; and a friend of mine who knew that, and who had happened to drive past the house, had written to me to suggest it as a likely place. I had got into the train at midnight, and had fallen asleep, and had woke up and had sat looking out of window at the brilliant Northern Lights in the sky, and had fallen asleep again, and had woke up again to find the night gone, with the usual discontented conviction on me that I hadn't been to sleep at all; -- upon which question, in the first imbecility of that condition, I am ashamed to believe that I would have done wager by battle with the man who sat opposite me. That opposite man had had, through the night -- as that opposite man always has -- several legs too many, and all of them too long. In addition to this unreasonable conduct (which was only to be expected of him), he had had a pencil and a pocket-book, and had been perpetually listening and taking notes. It had appeared to me that these aggravating notes related to the jolts and bumps of the carriage, and I should have resigned myself to his taking them, under a general supposition that he was in the civil-engineering way of life, if he had not sat staring straight over my head whenever he listened. He was a goggle-eyed gentleman of a perplexed aspect, and his demeanour became unbearable.

miércoles, 18 de noviembre de 2009

Shinigami Thought XXIII Suffering


My deepest fear has come true my pain has trascended in to constant suffering I walk down a path no one can follow

Like the moon

you are changeable,

ever waxing

and waning;

hateful life

first oppresses

and then soothes

as fancy takes it;

poverty

and power

it melts them like ice.

Fate – monstrous

and empty,

you whirling wheel,

you are malevolent,

well-being is vain

and always fades to nothing,

shadowed

and veiled

you plague me too;

now through the game

I bring my bare back

to your villainy.

Fate is against me

in health

and virtue,

driven on

and weighted down,

always enslaved.

So at this hour

without delay

pluck the vibrating strings;

since Fate

strikes down the string man,

everyone weep with me!

Shinigami Thought XXII Pain


Commending my thoughts in hatred
There is one pain I often feel, which you will never know. It is caused by the absence of you.”
(hate leads to pain pain leads to suffering this is my down fall im found in the edge of the abyss)



[Agony]
I am pain
I am real. I'm not a dream
I'm the chain around your neck as you scream

Surrender now
You can't beat death at his ruthless game
Make your bow
Hang your head in shame

[Me] I can't believe there is no way out...
[Agony] You'll find you are wrong
[Me] You fill me with doubt...
[Agony] You were never that strong

[Agony] I am pain
I am the wound that never heals
It's all in vain
No compromise, no deals...

[Me] I can't believe this is the end
[Agony] It's written in stone
[Me] Where are my friends?
[Agony] You have always been alone!

[Rage] (Pain!) We lead
We hide as the pain leaves the rage inside
(Motion personified alpha)
Being here, welcomed by...a sane mind
A travelled lie

[Agony] I am pain
I am the end, I am your wraith
Nothing remains
I'm the loss of hope and faith

[Me] I can't believe there is no way out...
[Agony] You'll I find you are wrong
[Me] You fill me with doubt...
[Agony] You were never that strong

[Rage] We lead, we hide as the pain leaves the rage inside
(Motion personified alpha)
Being here, welcomed by...a sane mind
A travelled lie
All the time, I had waited with rage
All the time, I was promised my salvation

[Love] I can't accept this, we will find a way
Out of this cesspool of doom and dismay
Beyond this dejection there's beauty and grace
A glorious future we long to embrace

[Rage] (Pain!) All the time, I have waited with rage
(Motion personified alpha)
All the time, I was promised my salvation


martes, 17 de noviembre de 2009

Shinigami-thought XXI HATE



As hate fills up a this lone spirit here is my version of hate the hate of her of them of...life....(aware of my feelings i am i understand this path leads to the dark side)

Hate has burned a gaping hole -
The rancid reek of charring flesh
Is dancing on my very soul.
And as the rising fumes enmesh
My crumpled heart, I play the role
Of crabby fart, gassing off
A diatribe; bleeding out a
Bitter part: an ugly twisted man.

hate the way you dress
I hate that you are a mess
I hate your eyes
I hate your lies.

I hate it when you talk
I hate the way you walk
I hate your smile
I hate your style.

I hate your arms
I hate your charms
I hate your face
I hate your place.

I hate your hands
I hate your plans
I hate the way you think
I hate it when you drink.

I hate when you call
I hate it all
I hate it that you are true
I hate you when I’m blue.

I hate you when you sleep
I hate you very deep
I hate the way you kiss
I hate to be like this.

I hate your touch
I hate you much
I hate myself more

I hate how I loved you
I hate how I felt
I hate everything you said
That made my heart melt

I hate what you did
I hate how I hurt
I hate how you left me
Alone to die in the dirt

I hate how I let you in
And watched you steal my heart
I hate how much you put me through
I hate how much I cried

I hate how I try to hate you
I hate it that I can't
I hate it that I miss you
Even though you don't

I hate how I still love you
I hate how I still care
But most of all I hate it
That you are no longer here


Shinigami Thought XX whispers

My Dearest,

I have heard by whispers in the dark that you have been invaded by the same kind of sounds in the night that have miss lead you far form the truth my dear I tresure you like the winter sun treasures the spring flower whe it misses its beuty and has nothing but cold white to shine its care upon. I assure you my dearest epiphany that in this words there are no lies there are no miss leading words no intempt to confuse you just a solemn desire for your understanding hoping you could use your insght to see what is there but no one wishes to see hoping youd understand that those lone whispers at night bring nothing but double-dealing attempts to lead you far fom me.


Hope you listen my words not just whispers

The rustling of leaves
A stirring of the wind
Those things that I hear
grows fainter
and fainter
and fainter
until nothing but silence
is left to me. I hear nothing
but my thoughts and fears.


lunes, 9 de noviembre de 2009

Shinigami thought XIX (don't ask 4 # XVIII it will never come out)

El silencio, compañero de la noche, que solo lo interrumpe los suspiros de recuerdos que a duras penas emite el alma, mientras agoniza tu ausencia, y se pregunta ¿Porque no estas aquí?

Mientras tanto te pienso, linda, dulce y alegre; de piel aterciopelada, impregnada por ese sutil aroma que se obtiene en los campos de alcatraces.

Será que tanto te extraño, que pienso en aquel día que te vi y que se paralizaron mis sentidos al ver tu silueta, ese sentimiento que me envolvía e invadía solo al verte, un fuerte palpitar dentro de mi capaz de mover montañas y de hacer cosas imposibles e inimaginables.

Desde que te alejaste solo me consuela la luna, que alumbra mi rostro humedecido, por las lágrimas que llevan tú nombre. A la cual pregunto por ti y el porque de no merecerme tu cariño; pero ni ella ni nadie me da la respuesta, que habré hecho mal, a caso seré merecedor de esta gran pena.

Será que no oyes mi llanto, será que no ves mi anhelo. Tal vez mi cariño nunca te convenció, tal vez nunca merecí quererte; quisiera cerrar el libro del recuerdo, dejando paso al presente, Encontrando a alguien que pueda estar con migo de la misma forma que tu lo pidiste haber estado.

martes, 3 de noviembre de 2009

Thor Secret II

Si pudiera deslizarme por el cielo
una estrella brillante te traería,
y para adornar tu cabellera
de diadema el arco iris te daría.

Si tu fueras mi reina
tu esclavo fiel sería
y postrado a tus pies,
yo mil besos te daría.

Si yo pudiera pasearte por el cielo
entre mis brazos yo te llevaría,
formaría un lecho de luceros
y allí te imploraría fueras mía.

Si tú fueras mía
sería linda fantasía
y en coro las estrellas
una canción de amor entonarían.

Si un día sucediera, reina mía
que mi sueño fuera realidad,
lucharía con todita mi alma
para darte toda la felicidad.

Si algún día fueras mía,
mi corazón yo te daría
y entre risas de alegría
tú serías mi linda fantasía.